Encouragement
Sometimes ure in dilemma whether if u should send the text or make the phone call or even make the first move.
On the other hand, u'll be worried if the person will reply u or they gonna ignore u and u gonna be embarrass if they doesnt reply u.
As well as, ure waiting the person to make the first move, some of them wouldnt make the first move until u do.
The first move take a lots of encouragement to get ur guts out and make the move.
It does happen to everyone.
Ure worrying what they gonna think bout u, and they might ignore u.
It does worried me a lots as well,
It took me days to get my guts out and send a text to someone/speak to them!
I worried that they will ignore me, and im gonna be embarrass,
Sometimes things doesnt goes well with me,
At least i tried, know the results, move on and not keeping any hope.
That's how i deal with it, Its quite upsetting but since they ignore u what u gonna do? call them up and ask them?
Nah babe, dont make urself even more embarrass, save it for someone else who are much worth it.
Recently, i went on tube i saw quite lot people holding their phone and look at it for ages!! seriously ages!
they are thinking if they should press the send button..
If i were them i'll press then send button, or if i can i'll help them to press the send button.
Its tempting me to do so...
After u send it, U'll feel release.
Even if u get ignorance, dont get upset, move on and pretend nothing had happened.
This helps u grow stronger.
At least, u know what is gonna be rather then keeping ur hope, wondering and not trying it.
Whatever it happen after all, Im afraid sweety u still have to face it.
U think urself are Attractive like a Queen Bee
Ure wrong..!!!
There are trillions women in the world,men wouldnt just go for a girl like U.
In fact,u can think urself are attractive,sexy,hwaaat are whateva u wanna think urself are.
Ure to urself but for men,U arent attractive as what they need
They needed sex,not U!
U may find me wrong but think,which men doesnt love sex?
Only ladies can gave them or even for gay they'll go for men
lots of guys came to u and finding ure attractive or they fancy u..
all the matter they come to u is for ur vagina..
All they after is for sex nothing else.
U may find some are good but end up they'll ask for sex too..
and if ure a "CLEVER" enough u'll fell for that trap..
Men will use every tricks they have to get u to bed...
Ie: I fancy u,i want u to be my gf and ure like ohh really!? Me too!
Baaaamm next second u guys are on bed having sex..
try to find a guy who can be with u for half year and not ask u for sex, that wouldn't happen
Bet they'll dump u after few weeks!
U sincerely fancy them but they arent,they can say the same thing to other girls...
And end up men get what they want and u left with a broken heart and a dirty vagina.
All I can say Sweety U've been fucked hard.
I doesnt mean that u couldnt have sex with anyone u want, and for guys u guys are just a TOOLS!
Slept with hundreds of men it doesnt make u look cool and made u gain sex experience they'll just think that ure just a whore or a sex tools.
U'll regret of what u have done to urself especially when ur heart broken.
U'll never want to be fucked twice anymore..
For Once,I thought Im a Queen Bee but all the bees are after my hive.
2 more weeks is my 21st birthday!!
Imma DECEMEBER BABY!
Im not really excited!
I rather to stay forever 18!!
Couldnt believe that Im gonna hit 21 soon......
So....
As usual,I always wish to get something from my wishlist.. teeeheeeeee.....
Unfortunately,most of the time i never get them.
But still i'll never give up.......... when i can afford to buy it i'll buy them...
Never expect anyone will give what i want to me..
This year,same again boyf have exam on the same week of my birthday.
unfortunately
I speak english because Im international?
Everyone knows that English language is International Language,
But some people they want to be International,they speak English everyday,every hour and every second.
And they neglect their own language.
Let's say,FOR MALAYSIAN
V speak few language but some people just speak english (broken english i mean) with all the la,lor,le,weih..etc.
If u guys wanna speak english and be international please use proper english and yet u can feel VERY COOL speaking in broken english, (Im talking bout those who doesnt speak their language and felt their language downgrade their levels)
I do speak broken english when im in High school,even now as well! especially im replying messages with my malaysian friends only they know what vre talking.
I currently live in England,whenever Im with my Malaysian friends I wouldnt speak English I prefer us to speak chinese.
I need to improve my chinese instead,my chinese is getting worst.(no offence,Im not showing off that Im better in English,my english isnt good as well,still need to be improve)
I couldnt read chinese(i never study chinese before),When Im 16/17 i just learned how to write my own chinese name,even tho i wrote it when i was kid but i forgot after all. When my foreign friends expect me to know chinese since im chinese so that i can teach them/help them they're learning chinese,but i couldnt i told them i cant read chinese all of them like WTF ure chinese yea,but i never study chinese before and im not good in speaking chinese,when i talk non senses/swearing i'll be better than formal talk
Sometimes when my family wants me to explain and translate from english to chinese i couldnt do it.
Even if i watch Hongkong/Taiwan program sometimes i dont get what they saying i puzzle up of what they saying to get what they actually saying
What annoyed me is When i went back to Malaysia for holiday,they always speak english with me/ forced me to speak english.I doesnt like it.
I prefer to speak chinese when im back home! and i dont feel comfortable speaking english with them.
And im proud of myself is chinese,Im not wannabe british...I dont feel disgrace of my own race
Its our 1st anniversary.♥
A year has past...I remember before V met, it was kinda funny...
V study in a same college but different course.
V doesnt know each other thanks to facebook......
V talk through facebook and then meet up then now vre couple.
For the very 1st time i saw him on college,(V havent known each other yet)
I was like,that dude looks like chinese with dark skin but what language he's speaking! I doesnt understand the language
I assume he's either
That time Im not into Nepalese guys that much.
I kept guessing where does he from,Im not into him yet.
But for him,he remember me as a girl wears red short(which i never wear it after that time,its in my closet) with an umbrella,that time was raining he didnt have umbrella with him.
That's how V remember each other,V talked bout it after vre together.
V chat on facebook most of the time,out of sudden,he asked me if i want to watch a movie THE HOLE 3D(child horror movie) V thought it was horror movie and me DOESNT like horror movie..
But since he asked me I was like why not.
and my stupid boyf NEVER expect me will say YES..
and he's forced to date me.. init
The date sort of went well, and vre together...thats very quick.
V fancied each other so why not give us a try when im desperate needs to get out from previous relationship and he just ended his relationship.
He's the 1st boyf i bought to meet my family,I wanted him to know that Im serious with him and i dont want puppy love relationship.Eventually the news spread to all my relatives,i guess i got more than 100+ relatives all know bout it.everyone is asking bout my boyf when i went back home time summer.It isnt like Im going to get married in anytime soon(even though im desperate to get married now)
Everything went well in our relationship till i made some mistake.
Till now he couldnt forgive me and couldnt trust me anymore.
For what ive done Im so sorry
But V managed to get to our 1st anniversary.
Happy Anniversary my fatty old man,
Stop saying being with me its a curse!! =P
Thanks for the surprise gifts,even though i didnt get romantice dinner at OXO Tower,No flowers but
Thanks for the gift.
I love U baby.
Hopefully V can celebrate our 2nd anniversary together.
Condoms? Safe Sex ? Pregnancy? STi?
Condoms could prevent pregnancy / STi(sexually transmitted Infection) ?
think of what condom are use for.
commonly all of us who has been taught as Condom are meant to prevent from pregnancy.
their slogan is PLAY SAFE,it doesnt mean will 100% keeps u safe from pregnancy
Actually ask urself and look at the condom packet,do they said they are 100% safe from pregnancy?
It doesnt! it said 98% effective..and the 2% always get people won the jackpot!
Then they'll started to regret,guys will keep banging their heads to the wall and girls will started to cry and seek for help! who can help? Abortion clinic will do!!?
If u does,u'll regret of what u had done, u just killed a LIFE.
1 night pleasure will turn to be whole life full of regrets.
In the fact,that condoms are actually to prevent from STi (virus) ie:(for the common viruses) Chlamydia,Gonorrhoea,Hiv/Aids (click it to know more)
If u dont trust what i said..
either u can google it / look at ur mates who are pregnant/their girlfriends are pregnant
ask them what had happened..
I bet some of them will said condoms were ripped/broken!
or had no idea...
Infact,the condom arent broken and it wasnt the condom fault it was UR own faults
Does anyone of U know ?
When a penis stood up/frozen/stiff up/whateva u named it..
Their sperms are starting to FLY...they dont really swim in the air,they can fly too
When an uncovered(no condoms/underpants/boxer)penis,touches somewhere near ur vagina it will gets in.
it was told by my GPs,Ive been lecturer by them, they advice me to use double protection.
Dont ever fucking naive to think,only wear condoms when the guys going score/cum.
And the sperms goes inside the condom u'll be fine.
IT WONT!! u just increase the risk of getting pregnant
well if u wanna pregnant ure definitely welcome to do so.
with only using 1 method of contraception(by using condoms) arent going to prevent u from getting pregnant
At least use double protection.double it up! more safety.
they got plenty of methods.
people are usually going for having contraceptive pills ( the pills/the birth control pill)
Ladies u dont have to be shy of having it or going to ur GP/ pharmacies to get it.
I dont find it has to embarrass bout!
And it does have side effects.....friends and mom told me the same things
said if i took too much of these pills since im still young and in future it might have less chance of getting pregnant,and i'll regret.
I know! but its better to be safe by now rather than regret.i still need life!!
And my mom said these too Ure young and u gotta carry ur baby to everywhere with u and u gonna missed something that u wanted to do in ur life.
after these u gonna regret as well..( she utterly fucked me up.what she mean is not to have sex when ure young)
Same goes to Morning after pills known as emergency pills,
people took it cause of condom broke/didnt use condom and they accidentally score inside.
It gonna harm ur body even worst,dont ever take the pill after everytime u had sex.
Anyways,up till now
Dont ever fucking tell me that u wont get what Im trying to say and not understand it
However,some people are just being stubborn and not to understand that CONDOMS DOESNT 100% PREVENT U FROM NOT GETTING PREGNANT, IT'S 99.99% PROTECTS U FROM THE VIRUS.
Ladies,do u know that when ure having period it doesnt 100% mean u arent pregnant
U can get pregnant when ure having period too..
Some people were pregnant and in that 9 months they have period as well.
Dont ever fucking naive think that ure having period u wont get pregnant
Ladies when u got pregnant ure the one who are fucked up.
the guys will just leave u whenever they fucking want.
They can just find other girls and fuck again and ignore all the shits they had cause
but for u ladies,u gotta take care and move on ur life with the little ones.
I knew some of them may get good partner,but trust me when they babies comes..
He will get fucked up too.
My mom is the example.She was fucked up so much,when i were born.
Well actually im the "accidentally".
Im proud of her that she can bring 3 of us up, move to UK and V can afford to live like others with no men helping her.
For her men are the burden .
when i was young she always tell me.
Dont ever trust men.They cant be 100% trusted.
same things goes to,
Condoms cant be 100% trusted
CRUSH
CRUSH
I assume that all of u have at least A crush on a person once in ur life time
The feeling of having crush just like vre in our childhood time...
Sweet,Innocent,Happy and Naive!
Even some of the kids they have crush at their classmate/the next door/childhood mates..
I had crush on quite a few people...
When i have crush on a guy..
Well I were young that time!
I remember when i saw my crush,
My face went utterly RED,
Im having pale skin,When Im in Malaysia my skin consider fair.
But when im in UK Im pale!
i can get into twilight movie,i dont need any make up to make my skin look pale..
When a pale person get their face red,its very obvious their face are red..
And i feel Hot too..literally my face can get an egg boiled when i get blush..
Other than having my face get red,I get nervous..hand keep sweating and i couldnt barely speak properly..
WEIRD?
i bet u do too!
when i get shy i had the same symptom too
But for some people when they had crush on someone turns out to be stalker
ie: stalk their facebook page every single mintues,check who's been their crush talk to and what he/she been up to..And u NEVER knew u turns out to be a stalker!
Sometimes they'll do something silly to get their crush attention.
For like argue with them,tease them,like the same things with their crush or do the same thing what their crush usually does!
For some people ive seen....
When they took picture with their crush...Usually they'll print it out huge like size A8/Poster..
Or some of them cut their crush pictures out and stick it with their picture of their own/ put it in their purse/wallet.
Everyone does silly things for their crush..
But crushing on someone wouldnt last long after if they knew their crush have new partner/ hurt them badly.
From fancying someone to hate..
I used to fancied a guy for quite a long time but at the end it turns out i hate him very much!
And i became sensitive when i heard his name...
Wondering if anyone of you had experience the same as me?
Recall urself of what have u done when u had crush....
U'll laugh at urself of what silly things u had done to urself and to ur crush.
It might be a good memories for u.
Schwarzkopf Oil Miracle
DEAR LADIES,

if ure think ure ladies/ wanna be nosy,welcome to read it..
anyways,its bout hair beauty..
Ive been recommended by my hairstylist (MOM) to use Schwarzkopf Oil Miracle
Me and my mom are VERY lazy to use conditioner,v just want to get our hair washed then off from the bathroom.
Even though i didnt use conditioner,after shower i have to use Sunsilk conditioner (which doesnt need to wash its better for me)
But it makes my hair looks oily..
I doenst like my hair looks oily and my hair gets oily very easily,
If i didnt wash my hair for a day,my mood will turn OFF and will be moody for the rest of the day..
and i couldnt sleep well at night
So when u knew that M moody it was my hair piss me off.
i have to wash my hair every single day..
Imagine when i have my long hair..it takes lots of time in bathroom!
now my hair is shorter...so it save some of my time too...
And yet,i doesnt like to blow dry my hair as well..(LAZY)
i like to leave it and let them dry..
my mom always nag me for leaving it dry just like that,i couldnt be bovvered to dry it...
Eventually,If u blow dry ur hair,ur hair will get smooth and more healthier (this is what my mom told me,but have to depends on how u blow ur hair.)
I quite often dye my hair,it makes my hair getting dry and the English water isnt good for our skin and hair too..
But no choice i live here...
Literally,this oil doesnt make ur hair oily even before and after u put it on..
It just soft and smooth like baby hair..(u'll feel like ure a baby again lol)
Even my mom said so,she doesnt like to put anything on her hair cause she had same condition as mine.
Well,if she can suggest me to use it and she likes to use it too..
its a very good product to use!
Try to use it,well Im not like those hairstylist will keep on sell their products when u have ur hair wash/hair cut..those are cheap!! and it wasnt good at all..
My mom will on recommend,she doesnt force/persuade her customers to buy it,she doesnt have time with all these bullshit...
Anyways,
look at my filthy hair.
It looks like a bird nest! or worst than that
i couldnt comb it without putting any conditioner/oil treatment
Its suprb dry and my mom shampoo will makes our hair superb dry as well
I DIDNT USE CONDITIONER AFTER SHAMPOO.
TRY IT WITHOUT USING CONDITIONER
PUT THIS OIL U CAN KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
AND SAY BYE BYE TO CONDITIONER
Schwarzkopf OIL Miracle.
It's miracle,after u use it u gonna be like WOW!
it smells nice too
there's 2 different products
1st is Finishing Treatment (which m using it)
for normal to thick hair types,it smoothens ur hair
2nd is Light Finishing Treatment
for Fine to normal hair types,it strengthens ur hair
On wet hair: Put a very small amount (if u have long hair put a little bit more)
U doesnt need to put more!!
A tiny amount will gives ur differences no worries that ur hair wouldnt get enough.
DONT PUT ON UR ROOTS..
it'll get wasted just put on ur end there/where is superb dry like mine middle is fine.
Then blow dry it.
On Dry hair: If u doesnt like to put on ur wet hair its fine as well.
If u puts on ur dry hair.it control the smoothness and it gives shine infusion
After putting on my bird nest hair..2second after..
I can comb it smoothly but when u touch ur hair..
warning
IT DOESNT CHANGE YET...
U STILL CAN FEEL UR HAIR ARE DRY!!
U gotta wait until after u dry ur hair.
saw the difference?
Facts bout my boobs
Wonder Why i wanna blog bout my personal stuffs...
specially this is bout the 2nd most sensitive part of girls body...
Due to my boobs attracted lots of people attentions...
I need to come clean bout my boobs..
Many people asked me what have i done to my boobs..
Ie: Cosmetic surgery "boobs enlargement".
and some of them asked me what my boyfriend had done to me,he's great!
That's utterly awkward....especially when my aunties asked it...(my aunties are crazy)
Some of them asked me what i ate to get my boobs big..
All i gotta say is..
I didnt have boobs enlargement,i wouldnt waste such an amount of money for them,even though they look nice and real...
( i felt it before,1 of my friend done it...its superb nice and fucking looks like NATURAL)
I had no idea what my boyfriend had done to them and even though he does,
nothing is working!
( like what others believe,guys hand and saliva will makes girls' boobs bigger)
for me its
SO NOT TRUE
U can look at other girls,their boobs still small and looks same as well,no matter how many different men they slept with,Accept the fact, U just natural born with small boobies.
I didnt eat something specifically that will made my boobs huge..
(especially those said Milk+papaya made into soup will help?)
Dont think so! cause i never drank them and my mom nor nanny had ever made that..
I like papaya and milk but that doesnt help anything.
The fact are,it was from my GENES...
my mom used to have huge boobs
(well she said hers were used to bigger than mine before vre born,as my aunties agreed)
And the gene passed down to me..
So im natural born with boobs..
I didnt specific do anything to my boobs not even massage nor anything,
I sleep without my bra on and when Im at home i usually didnt wear it as well.
Sometimes when I go out i didnt wear bra as well,
Putting ur bra on too much isnt good for boobs the blood needs to be circulate,
Especially Wearing ur bras on during sleep isnt good for ur boobs.
They need to breathe as well and its easy to get breast cancer.
If ure sleeping with ur bra on,try sleep without it
Ur boobs might get slightly bigger? i seriously had no idea.
If ure not used to it,try it till u get used to it.
When i were in Secondary school,People used to TEASED me of having big boobs
My self confidence went down to HELL,
At that time I hate myself having a big boobs than others,
All of them have small boobs,i wanna be "normal" like them
(well that time vre in secondary school)
But now not anymore..Im proud of them and definitely I saved 5000POUNDS for the surgery..=)
For those who used to tease me having big boobs,KARMA comes.
Up till now, Their boobs wouldnt grow bigger anymore(i guess so),
except plastic surgery might help(u can think bout it) ?
So now WHO'S LAUGHING WHO!!!???
Ladurée, 1 of the Famous Spot for Macaroons.
I were craving for macaroons...
It was my 1st time try Ladurée Macaroons
It was my 1st time try Ladurée Macaroons
The macaroons arent superb sweet asPierre HerméIf i keep having Pierre Hermé Macaroons one day i'll have diabetes..
And the environment is superb Nice......
I cant deny that I love the shop design...
Im loving it..Utterly classic
I took the pictures from google as im not dare enough to take picture and my boyf gonna start nagging again...
He'll start with Girls Girls Girls....then a big SIGH.
Pictures will continue the rest..=)
The Entrance
Front shop
Open seats.(downstairs)
Upstairs Where I seated
Nice viewIndoors with 2 different designs
My front groundView
My side ground view
Macaroons with Green apple,chocolate and Rose flavors
My chinese jasmine tea
(it doesnt taste any jasmine and it was different from what i drank)
Spot the hawtiiee behind??
(Im not talking bout my boyf,he's FUGLY)
The bill,its kinda expensive tho
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